At the time of writing this, I have no internet connection. Rather like withdrawl from a serious drug habit, I'm shaky, nervous, unsettled, angry, ... repeat. It's interesting timing, considering that lately I've been considering my life pre and post-internet age, with the same question cropping up at the end of all considerations: what the hell did I do before it came flashing and html-ing into my life? I don't use it to surf idly -though I think there's value in that -but like many in the media world, as the basis of my day-to-day communications and work-related tasks. Everything, from pitching a story, to chasing down the key players, to prep to research to fact-checking to writing and final product requires my use of the interwebs. When did reporting and writing get so complicated? When did streamlining become mainlining? How did simplicity get so complex? The loss of the internet has left me with a host of questions related to the nature of my activities and creative choices. I resolved to do something useful with my time -useful in a way other than that as defined by internet surfing, that is -by writing both creative and journalistic stories, talking with friends, and sitting with my addiction -feeling it and not judging. Harder than it sounds. I'm restless by nature and I suppose regular exposure to the internet feeds that.
Still, lack of one connection means a different -perhaps familiar - connection, redefined and rediscovered. It was with a mix of annoyance and resignation that I came to accept the fact that I was -am -cut off. An internet-equipped friend kindly helped me in some necessary prep work but I'd turned on the telly in the hopes of filing the gaping void of non-connectedness; I don't just use the internet for information, but, like many, for connection with others -close, far, known and unknown. Television just doesn't fill the same hole. But I've come across some really, extraordinarily good programming.
Among the many delectable offerings on AUX's excellent, arty-leaning video flow was the Michael Franti video for the catchy, peppy ska-meets-funk-pop single "Say Hey". Filmed in Rio, the video is a bright, powerful shot of pure, unadulterated joy. Franti dances joyously with kids -tweens and toddlers alike -along with grandparents and assorted musicians. Damn. If I had internet, I thought, I would've missed this little gem from one of my favourite artists who released, in my estimation, one of the finest albums in recent memory. The depiction of joy in "" gave me a far greater feeling of connection and reminded me of the power of music -to move hearts, mountains, and minds.
Speaking -typing -of moving mountains, the Choral section of the Ode to Joy just finished on Bravo! and I'm recalling the tender memories I have of seeing Sir Simon Rattle conducting the very same ten years ago in Royal Festival Hall in London; it remains one of my dearest memories of London, to this day, though it was hardly the first or last time I saw the piece. The memory of my night at the Hall, however, remains seared in memory, and comes back jut that much clearer without the techno distractions I've become such a willing slave to over the past few years. Now I see Beethoven's Hair has come on -it's a documentary directed and co-produced by Larry Weinstein, a wonderful Canadian filmmaker I had the opportunity of interviewing for Inside Hana's Suitcase back in the spring. Larry had told me during our wide-spanning conversation that he loved making the doc about LVB, and tonight of all nights, here it is. Of course, I wouldn't have known about it unless my internet connection had died. I'm tempted to say I'm grateful.
Could I have heard the Ode (and learned of poor Ludwig's possible lead poisoning) chained to the elusive, semi-illusory velvet handcuffs of internet connectivity? I caught the ode - this celebration, this tribute to human capacity, capability and credo to greatness, to compassion over cruelty, to space over time, to choice over tyranny -after being forcefully cut off from a terribly isolating habit. Now alas, the addiction isn't over yet. I'm still itching to check my mail, check Facebook, see what people are doing on Twitter and blast around from site to site, ping-ponging between videos and articles and sounds and sites.
But, much as I love it, I cannot deny that the central role I've given the internet in my life has closed me off to plumbing further depths -imaginative, cognitive, sensual, creative -that I know are awaiting rediscovery. I think I need to reconnect -and not just with the bobbing heads and cold letters on my monitor, but with the reason I started this blog: a keen passion for music, art, and all the other cultural things that colour this short existence. It feels like the least I can do -for me, and indeed, for you, the reader.