Nov 29, 2011
Nov 9, 2011
And that's just how it felt, to look at my painting, hanging there with 24 other, entirely-other works. As Christopher observed, "Yours is so very different." Of course my kid is different, I wanted to say. I didn't plan it that way, but I'm not surprised that's how s/he turned out. It's nice to be with a crowd, but not of it. Even so, different-ness doesn't guarantee confidence. Leaving my painting at the Gladstone was strange, and a bit stressful (it's exhibited there with the others through Monday). I had a momentary twinge of -what, grief? separation anxiety? parental sentimentality? -when I walked into my tiny studio space at home and immediately noted that particular painting's absence. It had become a sparky little fixture amongst the larger, older stalwarts, who seemed to hover and surround it in a protective huddle. I got cold thinking of it hanging in silence and darkness all night, alone and open to the elements of unfamiliar eyeballs and sneaky urban spiders.